Saturday, April 25, 2009

Times of Refreshing...

The spring weather has been soo refreshing the last several days and today was just BEAUTIFUL! We walked over 10,000 steps this morning on our walk! I think this was somewhere in the vicinity of over 3 miles roundtrip! I was so shocked/thrilled! We've been trying to be faithful to walk each morning and we have just completed today.... six days in a row! We had been fitting more walks in here and there before this, but I am so glad we have started making these habits daily! Since I have had the goal of memorizing two scriptures per month (starting in January of this year) that I really NEED (not just something random... but something the Lord has revealed that I really really NEED), I have been using part of this walking time to review my spiral 3X5 notebook cards and it's been so much fun!

These past weeks have been really difficult.... I'm not even sure if I am ready to actually put onto paper what some of it has felt like, because I'm not even sure I can... it's been hard to process it alone, much less with my very godly and supportive husband, so I'm not even sure how I can do this yet in such a public forum... Except, of course it seems this is something I need... to share with whoever might benefit... In time, I think... in time...

There is just so much grief and loss to go through... and I think we have to be honest and just continue to go through it. Being honest with the Lord that THIS is where we are... and not trying to think we have anything figured out! Because we certainly don't... We can only depend on Him for strength to press forward in the midst of our pain... and share our hearts as openly as possible with one another and Him.

Lord, I am so greatful that you chose me to be yours! Long before I was born and long before I knew how desperately I needed you... you chose me! Thank you Jesus, for the indescribable joy in the midst of sorrow and great pain. I am so glad that you are my strong tower and fortress. My soul does find rest in you!

Psalm 18:30-33 As for God, his way is perfect; the word of the Lord is flawless. He is a shield for all who take refuge in him. For who is God, except the Lord? And who is the Rock except our God? It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect. He makes my feet like the feet of a deer; he enables me to stand on the heights. (From memory... so I hope this was mostly correct!!) NIV ** I had to check... just to be sure and I only had to change one word... I had put "makes my way straight" and it was "makes my way perfect".... )

I pray for anyone who reads this that you might find rest in God. Times of refreshing can be found in Him... as I seek Him, even in the midst of great sorrow, I can truly say that I find rest in Him.

1 comment:

  1. I'm sorry that you're having such a tough time right now, but it sounds like you have your focus in the right place...on Jesus!