Sunday, October 18, 2009

Feeling numb... praising God

Just over a week ago (10/10/09 at 3:40 p.m.) my Daddy went to be with Jesus.

I honestly admit, that I have been a bit envious of him. Yes, overwhelmingly I miss him... and I know that I'm still just very numb and that it has not all sunk in yet... But my heart aches for heaven.

I feel numb. I feel weary. I feel a bit of emptiness and the sense that life will never quite be the same again, but still I feel joy and hope in the midst of this sadness. I know I will see my daddy again.

Thank you, Lord, for sending Jesus to this earth... For letting him live the perfect life he did; die far too soon and in such a cruel manner... but thank you most of all that he rose from the death and prepared the way for us to have life eternal! May I never take for granted the free gift you have given to me. May I never hold so closely to this life and my "comforts" that my heart stops aching for heaven.

Thank you for giving me the dad you did on this earth to teach me how to live... and... how to die as well.

Gratefully your child, I am seeking to find my rest in you. I lift up my eyes to you...